I remember that previous day when i was reading some article or book...when you look back to your life , you always realize that things that you regret is always more than things that you have finished it...
All about it is time factor...
To be honest , is quite hard to be a trainee or worker when thing that you were paid to do is thing that require a lot of asking here and there...Just when i first in intern , i feel hard to open mouth and ask question ...why??
1) They are always busy. I felt they don't have time for me..
2) I scare they will think i am stupid because my question may be too simple for them.
3) consequence of second item , i scare i spoil my image.
and i started to feel "thick-skin" people is GOOD , they ask as they want even people scold them..but must know when to stop la!
I am really sick of saying time is flying .... but that's how true it is for everyone .. If you feel you are too free , then definitely you didn't do a good job...there's so much thing out there that can improve yourself still...exception for genius...
this is my 3rd month under training .. i was wondering is it right to feel that i learn a lot but at the same time i done a bad job as well..
Firstly i was taught how to do certain thing with spoon fed method , every single step is like baby trying to walk , one step by a time ... sometime even i feel my colleague are giving me message " hello , do some by yourself ..there's google out there ! why u keep asking...i need to work as well"
My colleague are right , i respectfully agree with him...but the thing is i don't know how to google..because i dont even know what's the problem exist..
frankly speaking , when my unit manager ask me .. how much you give yourself for this particular skill ... i rated 7 out of 10...that's pretty high isn't it?? same question for now..i will rate it on 2 out of 10...
It's time that matter when come to good and just good enough.. for my case , after you plan for your task ..firstly do you able to finish it on time??
I cant even give a good plan to my manager , even when i see on my planning for my project i feel that's like stupid lie out there...This is what i learning for 3 months , you believe it?? i learn a lesson from them...
Just Ask It!
Never scare to ask anybody , they wont scold you ..if you worry that they are too busy cant help you much..write down your things that you don't understand , from head to toe .. write a summary for your question before ask them.. Tell them what result you expected or found , if dont know just say i dunno..
Success Start From Planning!
Come to most important , i feel planning is the biggest step to success..You cant give a crappy planning for certain project .. It will take you a lot of time for your crappy planning itself...doesn't matter either you follow or not on your crappy planning...
Break It Smaller Is Essential!
Break it down smaller , milestones is a buzzword i hear everyday ... because that's what boss want it and customer pay it..one of the rule for milestone is don't set it too high for yourself but break it down smaller so you have a near target to strike , that's like counting the probability of shooting on the target with the distance as variable =)..No math involve..
Clock On!
This is the best practice ever , get a stop watch from any freeware on the web .. or any watch or gadget you have that have stop watch function...use it to count , how much you need for this particular stuff to be done ... match it to your plan , do you fulfill all the hours you have been planning for?? think how to compensate back..Record it down ...
I was told by 2 experienced guy , 1 question people will always ask...either customer or boss...
How long you take to finish this task.. This is your first impression for it..
If you are just studying without touching any working stuff , clock your time can help you to concentrate more.. Because you can see that the time is RUNNING!
This is what i have learn , mistake is the best step of learning...at the same time clock is running..How many mistake you can learn from in this short period..Try it out , this can be seen in just few days...
I wont read newspaper except got some very big thing happening out there..
Cut it short , today i read Star newspaper..Heart & Soul section , there's where i stop upon and read while i was walking along the road back to my house...
Before telling anything , firstly Heart & Soul is sort of like giving people opportunity to ask some question they face in life which they couldn't find any answer...then you can find "Thelma" to give u some sincere advice =)...
This particular column attract me because i saw this title "Are you ready for love" further looking down..i saw the people who is facing problem almost same age as mine...21 years old and his gf is 20...
That's a long story he put actually , cut it short is something like this..
They both studying in the same university , while recently her gf asked for a break because she wan to study abroad and doesn't believe in a long distance relationship.The boy friend got frustrated and doesn't wan to bother any calls or sms from his gf. The gf left him a pendrive in the locker with some sweet memories inside there..and a letter with this short tearful sentence "You deserve better , hope you can find someone better than i am" . Well at last he feel regret and depress , he thinking of further study in a university that near her to "regain" this relationship.
and here's the advice from "Thelma"
Is also a very long and meaningful advice.For me it sound like a bit lecture infront from Telma..but it really good to learn from..
"Your reaction to her decision to take a break from further studies shows your immaturity and selfishness , although she's ambitious and determined . she tried very hard to make peace with you before leaving .But you deliberately ignored her calls and messages until she'd left. Did it make you feel better to cause her tears and heartache ? If you were truly ready for love you would have encourage her plans for her future. Instead you sulked like a spoilt brat who couldn't get his way.
Thinking for the person you care about is part of love.
Now you choose to study close to your girlfriend , remember that proximity cannot guarantee love. At this point you will both be meeting different people , moving in separate circles and having your own study and social schedules.
Out look and expectations change as you develop confidence and awareness of self in a new environment . You may both want to experience and explore this phase of your lives instead of continuing the relationship.
Every relationship will have its own challenges before you meet someone you wan to marry and have children with.Take your time to know your heart and mind . Dont always think of yourself or you will neglect your partner's emotional needs. A selfish relationship cannot sustain love , compromise and understanding in the long term."
-The End-
Before today come , i was blurred when my colleague telling me this coming friday is a holiday...though going to be a good holiday since this is my first holiday that i have since my intern started , until yesterday..i dont think this is going to be a holiday for me...since my task not really done yet , my manager was trying to help me out yesterday...so in return i must giv him something to see on monday as well..
Yes today i am in the laboratory of my company ...sitting here without breakfast is so awkful...maybe without lunch too , because canteen isn't going to open for few staff only..back to some good news...
unspeakable happiness flew through my body , when i see my name was on innebandyflooball SUKPEN list..yup my club i am now in , i really doubt that i wont be on the list since the SUKPEN only for 12 players to go up there include golie...and my club have so many people that play so well than me...but surprisingly i am up there...so happy...gonna to train hard tomorrow , musn't disappoint them in my first game..
Definitely i will play SUKPEN with my new floorball stick !! Hope that i can adapt to that stick in few days....This good news actually bring me away from working because i keep thinking about SUKPEN...
Will update you guys about it later...now i better go back to work before is too late...=D
When people grow , the philosophy in life that we come across is enough to put into 300GB hard-disk..each and every single day...Some inspiring , keep me going-on ...some is when i feel tough life ahead...some philosophy even is sweet...
How many have come across you?? What about today .. did u think of any that add into your list??..I feel it rather unique , because everybody will have different philosophy...that's the only one that exist in this world and it belong to you...
Here's mine today:-
In life there's too much thing to put on your puny shoulder , you can't bring everything along with you in this life journey..sometime must know how to put down something not worth carry along...
Philosophy remain in words , not every single one that really can say it and do it...at least for me
Yesterday i went to Funky Night organize by Engineering Society...Except go there for the food , i also meet up some of my friends there...include our administrator of the engineering department...First question direct to me is :
"Hey TK , what you up to recently...so long didn't see you" ..other than this question i think i got some compliment from peoples also =D which make me feel dam sweet...
To clear off some of your doubt , i decide to post it here...i will try to get those funky night picture and compile it into a post for sharing..lets start the topic today =)...
1.I am working as intern-trainee (this is obvious if you read previous post).
2.I working out on my English too. (sometime seem to be so freaking broken).
3.Speak better way (this is always what i learning )
4.What i going to start off as a small seller of ideas.. (this is interesting for me)
5.My University have accepted me , but without exemption yet..(finish off the final application)
6.Side-studies for my intern as a software engineer (this is tough yet fun).
what you can see from up there is , none of it is really up to my personal life anymore...I am not too sure about people out there but what i want will be something like a business people that do communication a lot....but more or less is because of the difference in $$...
Here come my sport and fun , InneBandy ..this become my only entertainment and also exercise every week ...
I started to believe , what you keep believing and do it ...that particular "what" is not far away actually...I have a family that no need worry about 3 meals , that's enough for me to explore my own path without burden up my shoulder to support the family..this is how lucky i am here =)..indeed my dad give me more than just 3 meals...
btw , this is related to working life that i wan ...
*taken from hanselman*
This is how hanselman wan his working life to be when he first enter Microsoft , it's what everyone desire for right?? =)...Me too !! it cant be any better than that..anyhow i add something behind for my own workling life , i wan the environment to be like this
This come to a question , why breakfast related to this...because in mac-d there's always people who's doing their work there despite those kids that's very noisy up there shout like mad..and that's how the atmosphere there become semi working environment ...even for student they prefer to study there sometime...I was there quite often when i was in diploma to do project and study..
so this morning i saw a businessman he's sitting beside my table picking calls and writing some notes another hand ...more or less like the picture above just that the women doesn't exist there and the guy was holding a phone not cup..of cos he wasn't smiling like the picture above too..
I feel *SEMANGAT*(fired-up) after i saw him working like that , after all that's how i like my working life to be .. it doesn't matter is working for people or my own company...in future i wan this!!
well where i working now fulfill what hanselman shown , just that it doesn't have the environment i wan =D...
*Human always greedy and want for more..* that's why i am human =D..
*Btw not all human*..
Update news later .. talk about what i recently onto first!!
I am waiting february to come , that was what i think last month ....but now i am fill with learning materials .. it fill up my empty time for almost everyday , Weekdays i need to work + OT and weekend i need to help out my dad in something else..sometime i really wan some rest before another week start...many happy stuff happen in between colleague , sometime the mail make me laugh out loud until everybody looking at me.. >.> ...
and happy stuff continue to flow today , although it still not yet a reality for me....okay today i call to uni to ask about status of my credit exemption and also about IETLS test ....easy stuff first , i no need to take IETLS test d , save me RM550 dam super happy...because before that i was thinking about my 1 month salary just go to IETLS test .. =( ,
after that i ask about credit exemption ...ok this is the 1 i am worrying about for quite sometime ...because i worry that my diploma will just wasted like that only , not only Rm16k for my diploma but also 2 and half years time...she say that the professor not around so cant let me know how long exemption yet , but at the end of the conversation she told me to expect minimum 2 years to stay in there...
I laugh bitterly and tell her actually i just wan to know what's the maximum .. she told me is around 2 and half year to 2 years according to my result..but definitely wont goes above 3 years..when i heard that dam super happy...
I was happy because this exempted my time and my dad money ...just calculate that 1 year RM36k ...if shorten into 2 years or 2 and half it's around 72k- 90k .. is down from RM144k-RM108k..A lot of money there , well it come another worry ..but this worry is for later on..i really hope that they can grant me 2 years or 2 and half at least....although this is just she estimate from my result..
Sigh why the professor will away when i am eager to know !!
Btw i am fully accepted as a student there d... =D yippie... oh ya is monash campus in sunway..if you dunno which uni i talking about...
Will update when they have the news for me..
This world is really small , if you observe more towards the surrounding beside you ..you will find that many thing you keep in your head for finding a answer that satisfy you is now just beside you!!
Why life getting interesting is , like i said previously ...really a lot of thing i can learn from those senior ...and it's what i looking for , how companies actually work like , what's the correct way of doing stuff , how actually working life is differ from studying life , what's the attitude we should have ... and here comes another nice topic we share last week ... "when Asia meet US" , FYI the company i am under internship is a US company directly that we have a lot of communications in many way always for a particular stuff..
so that reveal some of US people opinions towards Asian and vice-versa...one of the difference between both is that , Asian working style is more on hierarchy base..which mean , boss is boss and worker is worker....we wont see it as all people is on the same level , when we have issue we will speak out loud to point that your up stair is wrong or you will doubt your superior decision...no friendliness exist between this line or we call it barrier..
Ask when you don't get it!!
when meeting going on , just ask directly ...instead of keep quiet and do wrongly at the last..which one you think will make it more serious??
another funny stuff that i do wrongly is , i surf facebook while i am in the lab...and suddenly there's a malware passing around the company computer gateway lol...i dunno whether is me annot...but luckily at last the issue solve =P...
There's a lot more that i think is worth mentioning but i forget d...because i am reading piles of document related to technical stuff...i feel i so dumb when i read those stuff because i keep google just within few mins ... =( i feel i didn't do enough yet ,i must do better!!
keep you all update when my monash offer letter come next few weeks...
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